I remember when I was a kid, always wanting to be the last one awake at a slumber party. Not because I thought anything bad would happen, but because I didn’t want to miss out on anything good, even if it was just listening to the other girls gossip about which boy was cute.
I think in a way, my constantly scanning for new books, movies, and games is an adult version of the same concept. I don’t want to miss out on the next exciting story.
Which… I suppose is a little bit weird, considering that stories can be easily consumed after-the-fact.
Although there is definitely something intoxicating about riding the wave as it’s happening. Waiting with everyone else for the next Harry Potter book, or discussing with people between seasons about what Lost really is all about. It’s this collective experience that we experience alone.
If that makes any sense.
In other news, I started browsing the Kindle free books today. Does it count as buying stuff if it’s free?
There are quite a few first-in-series especially, that are just discounted momentarily to get you hooked. Most are not at all popular books, so we’ll see if they’re any good.
It actually kind of reminded me of the days that I didn’t have access to every book in the world (because I grew up in the 80’s before Amazon and Google were a thing). Instead I just picked whichever book looked interesting on the shelves of my small town library. There’s something oddly calming about having so little books to choose from.
I was also browsing my already-purchased iTunes library today and realized I had a bunch of Lifetime movies that I hadn’t watched. I watched one today called Stockholm Pennsylvania, which turned out to be extremely creepy. I’ll probably do a review of it later this week.
Still it was cool to feel like I might as well watch these random tv movies because… why not? I have the time. I don’t need to be watching the newest thing. Plus I already own it.
Is it weird that I feel both calmed by the lack of choice I’m forcing myself into and at the same time slightly afraid I’ll miss something really awesome in the coming months?